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26 August 2006 @ 04:04 pm
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07 August 2006 @ 07:19 pm
Sam called me the other day when I was at work just because he walked into another branch of the company I work for at the moment and it reminded him of me. That was odd, but nice all the same. I don't know why I felt the need to mention that, but I did.

I'm feeling inexplicably down at the moment. I know that I said I would probably be grumpy by the end of the day, but this isn't grumpy because sometimes work gives me the shits. This is down, just plain apathetic about everything and sad for no reason that I can reasonably think of. And I really want a hug. Really, really want a hug. I've been feeling down a fair bit lately, just on and off, and it is really unusual because that's not normally me. I'm a happy, bouncy, stupidly shiny kind of person. It's just an odd feeling to have I suppose.
Current Mood: depresseddown
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07 August 2006 @ 10:55 am
It's a pretty day today! Pretty days make me happy!

I don't know how long the good mood will last seeing as in just a few moments I have to head off to work and deal with the joy that is Jordan. He is a tool. A gigantic tool. Just a big, big, big tool. And I'm not just saying that because he picks on Ash, Kat, Reido and Sean. What gives me the shits is that he never has a go at me. I know that I should consider it a good thing, but I know that the only reason he doesn't is because I'll make mince meat out of him. Ash, Kat, Reido and Sean will take his crap, but I have already had a go at him countless times for picking on me about the tiniest things. I'm not wearing black socks to work. Who cares!? They are effectively covered by my black pants and black shoes. And my pants are so long you can barely see my shoes anyway.


I hate it when good moods turn into ranting just because you think of someone you don't like. :S
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
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31 July 2006 @ 10:40 pm
I'm finally starting to feel better! Yay me!

So.... things that have been happening. There really isn't all that much I suppose. Things have been pretty dull. Big Brother finally wrapped up tonight. David's reunion with his boyfriend made me gush. Katie's reunion with Jamie made me gush even more. And then Jamie won. Not my Jamie obviously, because then I would be yabbering on about a relationship that hasn't happened for the last three and a half months, which would be creepy and a little bit stalkerish. A lot stalkerish.

In other news, my brother's girlfriend is an evil hoe. She lies and lies and lies and we have caught her out in so many of them. Turns out that I know a bunch of peoplpe that are related to her (I swear, Adelaide is the smallest town EVER). She told my brother that four years ago her best friend died of cancer and then she was diagnosed with breast cancer and luekemia a week later. Now, if it wsas true, yes, the story would be truly tragic. If her best friend really did die of cancer I feel terribly sorry for her. No one deserves that. But the fact remains that Jess (my brother's girlfriend) has never had cancer. I checked with her mother, her aunty and a cousin (I used to work eith her mother and aunty, and her cousin is a friend of a friend). They all said that she has never had it.

This makes me so angry that it isn't funny. Who the hell does she think she is to make up something like that? Cancer! It's one of the most tragic, horrible diseases that the human body has to endure. It kills thousands upon thousands of people, leaves children without parents, husbands without wives, it tears lives apart. I do not for the life of my understand how someone could lie about something so horrible. How could you trivialise something like that to the point that you feel as though it's okay to lie about it? I just don't understand it. It's just.... god, it's made me beyond furious. I just, I don't know. I just don't understand the way that some people operate I suppose. It's not just that she lied to my brother about something so huge, but the thing that she chose to lie about. How dare she. I just don't see why, you know?

And before this turns into a rant I'm going to stop.

Jamie and I have been great. Things are all very lovely and what not. I adore the damn guy. I swear, I dote on him so much it's not funny. It's just pathetic! But in an overly corny, sweet kind of way I suppose. And he taught me to play poker! I can play poker! I even beat him! That was avery proud moment for me. Well, a very proud many, many moments, because I won every hand for an hour. Turns out I'm better at reading Jamie than he is at reading me. And I finally got a photo of the two of us together! Yay!

Dad has gone away, leaving me with my mother. That could be interesting. We're great with each other in small doses, but as soon as we're left alone for too long, we start going nuts at each other. I suppose we're just no compatible like that.

And now I leave. I need to go watch Scrubs and wallow in self pity.

Love to all.
Current Mood: contentcontent
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22 July 2006 @ 05:34 pm
I'm feeling kinda down today. I'm not sure why exactly. Something just isn't clicking the way that it should. I went to the shops today to try and buy a shirt for my interview on Monday, but after doing 2 laps of the mall I was totally and utterly buggered. I've been really fatigued ever since I got over being ill, and I can't do anything. It's a pain.

And I need a hug from Jamie, because his hugs always make everything better, but he's a couple of hours away dirt biking at the moment, and it makes me sad. I just kinda feel lonely at the moment I guess. I'm just, guh. Not quite all there at the moment. And I cannot breathe out of my nose. And I'm cold. And just generally miserable.

I think I'm going to go wallow in my own self pity somewhere else now.

Love to all.
Current Mood: lonelylonely
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20 July 2006 @ 11:57 am
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. × I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (There are definitely some times when it is best not to mention certain things to people)
I curse sometimes.  (A lot) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (I tend to always have on in my bag for work. I usually just forget to take it out.)
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19 July 2006 @ 07:59 pm
It's a little concerning that I am this tired just because I missed a few hours of sleep. I'm sore all over and it's not very nice. My tendons are especially sore. I don't know why. I didn't think that I did all that much to them today, but apparently it was enough to have them hurting like a mofo.

I found out today that Kat is getting transferred away from our store. I was so upset. Ash, Kat and I have this little group, and it'll be very sad to lose her. We'll probably end up calling her up almost all the time anyway, because our slow is that quiet it's not funny. But it'll still be so very sad. But at least it's not me leaving, because God forbid what would happen if I had to work at D. My friendship with Alfred rapidly deteriorated not too long back, and now the only time he is allowed to say a word to me is when he is calling up about something to do with work. And even then he is hard pressed to stop me hanging up on him. It would not be pretty if he was my manager.

But on the brighter side, Reido is going to be getting more hours as a result. I feel so bad for that kid sometimes. He couldn't even buy something to eat today, he's earning that little. I shouted him lunch, because I got my tax return on Monday, so why the hell wouldn't I? He's back to sharing a bunk bed with his 10 year old brother at the moment because his dad won't help him out and get him his own bed to sleep on. Arsehole. See, when Reido's mum kicked him out when she got remarried, she didn't exactly leave him with well, anything. So he's struggling. There's not much any of us can do about it though, because the last thing he wants is to feel like a charity case, which is fair enough. I'd hate to feel like the only way I could stand on my own two feet was because other people pitied me.

So that's life at the moment. Not much going on really. I think I'm going to go rest my eyes. A lot.

Love to all.
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Afterglow : INXS
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19 July 2006 @ 10:41 am
Some bastard woke me up this morning because he decided that 8 am was an awesome time to start cutting down some trees. Dipshit. And nwo that it's 11am everything is quiet. Why couldn't he have had some consideration for everyone else in the neighbourhood and cut them down at 11!?

That is all. I just needed to have a bitch.
Current Mood: angryshitty
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13 July 2006 @ 11:08 pm
Work was awesome today. I'm pretty sure that Dave and I managed to recite every single line of 'Zoolander', which is pretty sad on just about every level. But it was fun anyway. And it shitted Jordan off to no end, which defintely made it worth my while.

The really shitty part of tonight came when we counted float and found ourselves $70 down. That would have been fine, had we not waster half an hour looking for it and found out that in the end Jordan had counted wrong. I don't think I could have gotten any more annoyed with him. How hard is it to double check your counts!? Seriously.

Then I went outside and Jamie was waiting for me, which was unexpected, because, you know, he wasn't supposed to be there. When I asked why he was there he jst gave me a big hug and didn't talk for a few minutes. That was extremely weird, because it's Jamie. He talks a lot. He finally told me that he had hurt his knee today and when he went to his specialist (he's had a few knee problems previously) he was told that he would never be able to play footy again. That is unless he somehow comes up with $6000 to pay for the surgery. He was shattered. He loves footy like nothing else, and he was just devastated. And so now I need to figure out a way to cheer him up when I see him tomorrow.

In other news I saw Sam the other night and found out that next week he is going to start working on the trains. Like bartending and what not. I was kinda shocked. But it kind of made sense as to why he has been clamouring to see me lately. I know he's not exactly going anywhere, he'll just be out of the state for a few weeks at a time and then be back for a few weeks and what not, but still. He's been this huge part of my life for the past few years, and honestly, Adelaide won't be the same without him, ya know?

I think that's about it at the moment. I'm mostly just worried about Jamie. I need to think of a way to cheer him up.

Love to all
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09 July 2006 @ 11:39 pm
I am strangely tired considering the lack of anything that I did on the weekend. I washed, I cleaned a bit, I went to Jamie, watched movies and tried to kill his Sims. Hardly the stuff for a tired little me one would think. And yet I am totally and utterly rooted. I blame too much sleep, it was clearly the culprit. I slept till midday on Saturday and 11 today. There is no way that's good for me.

But Perry left Big Brother and that made me happy. From the little I saw of the show she drove me totally and utterly bonkers, and I couldn't be happier that she got kicked out.

In other news, Jamie and I made it through this week without a single arguement or 'serious talk', which was nice. We've had a few rough weeks with that sort of thing, but I think that's mostly because it's actually starting to become something of a serious relationship now, so we need to get everything that drives us crazy about each other out in the open. But this week has been good, so hopefully that's all over and done with now.

And seriosuly... 'Hostel'... awesome movie. Not as gruesome as I was hoping for with the combination of Eli Roth and Tarantino... but you can't have everything.

And on a final note, Johhny Depp is the ONLY person in the world that can make too much eyeliner, bad hair and a pirate hat look hot.

That is all.
Current Mood: tiredworn out